• This weekend was a roller coaster but in the end things were fun
• I don’t think I’m meant for a University, I wouldn’t be able to stand the drinking and partying everywhere
• The two and a half drive wasn’t so bad, my eyes felt like they were going to fall out of my head though
• My skin won’t stop peeling
• I’m freaking about not having all my classes signed up for next semester but yet I’m not doing anything about 
• Can I just not go to college and save mom lots of money
• The past seems to never stay where it should
• 4 days
• 15 days and I’m done forever

-Is there ever going to be a day where I can wake up okay? Fuck bronchitis, fuck cellulitis, fuck the flu, fuck strep. I’m so sick of being sick
-When people go to college they turn into the shittiest people
-When will good shows come to Baltimore? It’s been so long
-I’m on spring break but friends forgot about me so I’ll sit here until next Tuesday
-A dog would solve most of my problems 
-I wish my car wouldn’t constantly have something wrong with it so I can make my tattoo appointment. So tired of waiting around and spending $$
-Broke the coolest mixed cd yesterday by unbreaking my cd player in my car
-I can’t hope enough that Brandon will come home for summer and my graduation
-I graduate soon but who cares
-I don’t want to grow up
-I can’t stand seeing someone wanting to end their life so badly
-I’m hoping when it gets warmer we’ll all come together again
-I still need one more thing to give up for blood and guts
-The day someone takes me on a plane will be the coolest day ever 

• 37 days and I’m done
• Everyone is bringing me down about this college
• “Greatness returns, not as before, but stronger than ever.” Waking up to you right beside me was more than I could ever ask for
• Trying to plan so many fun summer things
• Waking up to Tanner’s remake of “I Don’t Mind” was the cutest
• He is the cutest
• I’ve been sick for over two weeks but I’m trying to not let it get to me
• Lil disappointed with The Hunger Games movie but I have to love it either way
• Wish I was going to UB Thursday
• Is Carlos really in jail?

-It’s coming down to the last three months
-Things never go as planned
-I don’t understand how people can be so selfish
-Having to wake up extremely early tomorrow to go to the doctors
-Too many people are dying
-I got my prom dress and it’s not yellow which sucks
-Tosh is the only thing putting me in a good mood
-Someone make me a good hardcore/punk cd mix
-Slowly increasing my tootsie roll and chocolate licorice addiction
-I can’t help but get upset when people ask about you

that probably won’t get done

• Apply for colleges for next spring semester since I missed out on fall semester
• Stop crying and regretting not applying to schools for fall every time I see someone post that they received an acceptance letter to a college
• Get myself together in IMP for my senior portfolio
• Try to find a senior week place before I give up and go somewhere cooler
• Sign up for a gym and find a gym buddy
• Go to Wegmans or Whole Foods and get all the yummy food I’ve been craving and buy healthier food
• Find a decent priced prom dress that’s not yellow (but I really want yellow)
• Save money but with all the above things it will be real hard
• Try not to miss you too much
• Stop missing bits and pieces about people from the past
• Start hanging out, see my OG best friends again
• Go to the doctor to figure out why I always randomly throw up
• Make edits to my tattoo idea and set up the appointment 
• Stop being bummed about my 18th birthday in two weeks and get excited
• Get on a better sleeping schedule
• Get up and go pee

• I like EPI, not so much the surrounding people
• How can I miss someone so much when he’s not even gone yet?
• I want bangs real bad and need to make my decision by Thursday but it’s so risky
• Always a tired lil beb
• I hate how people think all seniors are going to trash their condos/townhouses. I just want a comfy place to stay.
• I hate hearing stories and not being able to make sure my best friend’s okay. I’ll always call you my best friend.
• Time is flying by and I can’t catch a break. 18 in three weeks. 
• I think Thursday will be too hard so I’m considering staying back
• Does that make me a bad person?

• R.I.P Chris Kelley, you will be missed and thought of, always.
• Like I understand “freedom of speech” and having the right to have your own opinion but there’s no need to publish it everywhere and tell people their beliefs are wrong. You’re all so fucking annoying.
• I’ve been to too many of friends’ viewings/funerals. This isn’t fair.
• Searching for a comfy, decent place for Ocean City is exhausting.
• I just want to apply to colleges but I’m too lazy.
• What are we doing? We have one week left and we’re not making the most of it.
• Morning shifts at work
• Today of last year
• I’m ready for school to end.
• I wish I could stop missing my best friend and everything be fine.

• I’m so tired of being sick
• I think too much about everything and nothing when alone
• 94 days
• Starting to get too upset at the thought of Tanner leaving in a few weeks
• Trying not to spend any money after Chanelle’s birthday
• I’m so behind on everything for school
• I don’t even want to go to senior week, I wanna road trip everywhere
• This pill has fucked me up both physically and mentally
• Still bummed about missing the free show Saturday
• What happened to my best friend?

from January 2011 to now just haven’t processed through my head yet. And sometimes I don’t think they ever will.

• Classes finally over and passed English with a very high B!
• I’m really trying to stay up so I can see Tanner but I can’t keep my eyes open
• The Hunger Games trilogy is too good
• And found out they’re on my independent reading list; extra credit 4 me!
• I have done absolutely no Christmas shopping
• I can always feel those eyes on me
• I wish people would stop asking me about college
• I have become self conscious about my “Baltimore accent”
• All the pups at Towson mall yesterday
• Pappas is my life for the next couple of weeks, $$$$