• This weekend was a roller coaster but in the end things were fun
• I don’t think I’m meant for a University, I wouldn’t be able to stand the drinking and partying everywhere
• The two and a half drive wasn’t so bad, my eyes felt like they were going to fall out of my head though
• My skin won’t stop peeling
• I’m freaking about not having all my classes signed up for next semester but yet I’m not doing anything about 
• Can I just not go to college and save mom lots of money
• The past seems to never stay where it should
• 4 days
• 15 days and I’m done forever

• Starting to miss my pale skin but I love my freckles
• Salisbury this weekend and I couldn’t be more excited to see my two boys
• I go from not having any work in WMST 101 to writing an 8 page paper and group presentation all due next week
• Still need to sign up for two more classes
• Slowly fucking my whole future up
• Going to the shelter makes me so upset
• I want to go on a plane and go to a cool resort
• I sit here and constantly build scenarios in my head that will never come true but I’ll continue to get excited about them just to be let down
• My hips don’t know when to stop growing but hips don’t lie so w/e
• I can’t find my appetite

-Is there ever going to be a day where I can wake up okay? Fuck bronchitis, fuck cellulitis, fuck the flu, fuck strep. I’m so sick of being sick
-When people go to college they turn into the shittiest people
-When will good shows come to Baltimore? It’s been so long
-I’m on spring break but friends forgot about me so I’ll sit here until next Tuesday
-A dog would solve most of my problems 
-I wish my car wouldn’t constantly have something wrong with it so I can make my tattoo appointment. So tired of waiting around and spending $$
-Broke the coolest mixed cd yesterday by unbreaking my cd player in my car
-I can’t hope enough that Brandon will come home for summer and my graduation
-I graduate soon but who cares
-I don’t want to grow up
-I can’t stand seeing someone wanting to end their life so badly
-I’m hoping when it gets warmer we’ll all come together again
-I still need one more thing to give up for blood and guts
-The day someone takes me on a plane will be the coolest day ever 

• 37 days and I’m done
• Everyone is bringing me down about this college
• “Greatness returns, not as before, but stronger than ever.” Waking up to you right beside me was more than I could ever ask for
• Trying to plan so many fun summer things
• Waking up to Tanner’s remake of “I Don’t Mind” was the cutest
• He is the cutest
• I’ve been sick for over two weeks but I’m trying to not let it get to me
• Lil disappointed with The Hunger Games movie but I have to love it either way
• Wish I was going to UB Thursday
• Is Carlos really in jail?

• I literally think I’m going insane
• Never wearing my own clothes
• I’ve never been good with relationships
• My goals for completing my paper and midterm aren’t working out after today
• I just wish I understood this math
• Why is there an IMP assembly tomorrow? I have three months left I don’t need this
• I still wonder what I would do if I got into this college
• My mind’s so stuck on one thing right now and I hate it
• I’ve been dreaming about my past every night. Is there a disorder for what I have?
• I just want happiness, not only in me, but you too.

-I don’t get why I still post these things on here, I’m full of negativity in them
-I can’t swallow pills to save my life
-National Free Pancake day started off well but ended terribly
-Getting nervous about the school I applied to
-I really don’t know what I would do if I was accepted
-I need to buy this Mac like tomorrow before I fail all of the upcoming papers due
-I want to stop always feeling and being sick
-3 weeks
-It’s been almost two months. I hope you’re better, but I’m only getting worse.
-I have so much to say

-It’s coming down to the last three months
-Things never go as planned
-I don’t understand how people can be so selfish
-Having to wake up extremely early tomorrow to go to the doctors
-Too many people are dying
-I got my prom dress and it’s not yellow which sucks
-Tosh is the only thing putting me in a good mood
-Someone make me a good hardcore/punk cd mix
-Slowly increasing my tootsie roll and chocolate licorice addiction
-I can’t help but get upset when people ask about you

• My laptop is completely destroyed
• Getting back $1009 in taxes..aka new macbook pro coming my way
• Tom for being so generous
• Jeff is the sweetest. Dinner was really nice and he bought an outfit for me for my birthday
• 3 days
• I just want to hear from one person so badly
• Still haven’t found a place for June
• Bummed I’m missing Breastfest and every other cool hardcore fest
• My women’s studies class is full of freaks and I love every second of it
• I’m finally going to be 18 Saturday
• But I’m not even excited, it’ll just be a reminder of everyone who said they would stick around or wait but gave up and went away instead.

that probably won’t get done

• Apply for colleges for next spring semester since I missed out on fall semester
• Stop crying and regretting not applying to schools for fall every time I see someone post that they received an acceptance letter to a college
• Get myself together in IMP for my senior portfolio
• Try to find a senior week place before I give up and go somewhere cooler
• Sign up for a gym and find a gym buddy
• Go to Wegmans or Whole Foods and get all the yummy food I’ve been craving and buy healthier food
• Find a decent priced prom dress that’s not yellow (but I really want yellow)
• Save money but with all the above things it will be real hard
• Try not to miss you too much
• Stop missing bits and pieces about people from the past
• Start hanging out, see my OG best friends again
• Go to the doctor to figure out why I always randomly throw up
• Make edits to my tattoo idea and set up the appointment 
• Stop being bummed about my 18th birthday in two weeks and get excited
• Get on a better sleeping schedule
• Get up and go pee

• I like EPI, not so much the surrounding people
• How can I miss someone so much when he’s not even gone yet?
• I want bangs real bad and need to make my decision by Thursday but it’s so risky
• Always a tired lil beb
• I hate how people think all seniors are going to trash their condos/townhouses. I just want a comfy place to stay.
• I hate hearing stories and not being able to make sure my best friend’s okay. I’ll always call you my best friend.
• Time is flying by and I can’t catch a break. 18 in three weeks. 
• I think Thursday will be too hard so I’m considering staying back
• Does that make me a bad person?